This bearing of pain
Murders the life I saw
So close in the mirror
Your hand, it felt
So real
I feel your heart
Beating normally
Mine is racing to yours
Racing to yours
Bearing this pain
Life I saw in the mirror
Murdered.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Papaw
you held my hand when I was small
painted pictures with words
as i grew tall
you made me smile, clap and cheer
you wiped my tears all while lifting my fears
taking me beneath your arm
you sheltered me from others harm
you kissed my face and loved my soul
you made me have this heart i stole
you danced with me when no-one else would
you showed me love like no-one else could
you sat me out upon that tree
you held my face and have stayed with me
you made a promise sure to keep
that you would punish any man who ever laid a hand on me
i love you more than any other
more than a grandpa you are my minds father
i am here to keep you safe
to absorb your hurt and clear your pain
i am here to talk and cheer
to dance and laugh and hold you near
i am here to never leave
because i know for sure
you will always do these things for me.
i love you. you're the most strong and diligent man i know.
painted pictures with words
as i grew tall
you made me smile, clap and cheer
you wiped my tears all while lifting my fears
taking me beneath your arm
you sheltered me from others harm
you kissed my face and loved my soul
you made me have this heart i stole
you danced with me when no-one else would
you showed me love like no-one else could
you sat me out upon that tree
you held my face and have stayed with me
you made a promise sure to keep
that you would punish any man who ever laid a hand on me
i love you more than any other
more than a grandpa you are my minds father
i am here to keep you safe
to absorb your hurt and clear your pain
i am here to talk and cheer
to dance and laugh and hold you near
i am here to never leave
because i know for sure
you will always do these things for me.
i love you. you're the most strong and diligent man i know.
.7 More Respectively; My Children.
oxygen, water
warmth of the sun
the breeze as it whistles
the night as it comes
slow down to focus
pay attention to see
the depths of pure sight
strength within me
they cry and the hollar
their voices, they scream
they laugh and they whisper
tell secrets and sing
they play and they argue
blow whistles and fight
they are all that I love
with all of my might
warmth of the sun
the breeze as it whistles
the night as it comes
slow down to focus
pay attention to see
the depths of pure sight
strength within me
they cry and the hollar
their voices, they scream
they laugh and they whisper
tell secrets and sing
they play and they argue
blow whistles and fight
they are all that I love
with all of my might
Monday, January 17, 2011
.5.6.7
inside you are with me
never lost
you always guide my way
crying i am alone
your grip tightens
see the sun you cry
I look to witness the sun is hiding
you are the rays that gently
beat my chest
my face is warmed by your hands
invisible touch
feel me feel me crying
tears are not the answer
writing words that never seem to form
singing at the top of my lungs
on my knees i cannot say
any louder
hear me always
you are with me
you are with me
im never letting go.
tiny granules twisting beneath our feet
grays and blues rushing by
our sky is the Heaven we see in each other
our life is one
laying down to feel the warmth
salty pebbles dance around our bodies
world spinning, time spent the way it should
our bodies against one another
safety, love, comfort, truths
we are one.
coarse tipped brush
thick cool paints
smeared across my naked body
pushed onto the easel
our soft lips touch
forming magical moments in my mind
fingertips tracing over my ribcage
goosebumps rising...chills..you
stare into my soul
right through me you see the pain
beneath where the beauty is hiding
hand gripping my wrist, other holding my face
"I love you" escapes your breath
inhaling you I feel life become Awake
face finding my neck, eyes exploring every crevice
tip of tongue running up and down me
leaving gentle kisses behind
your hand leaves my face but my eyes follow
watching as you caress me, taking each breast
one at a time
into your hand, circling with your tongue slowly
gently kissing each nipple
staring briefly into my eyes
"come here" pulling me up toward you
reuniting our lips as though we had never felt each others embrace
twisting upon the canvas we are a tangled mess of beauty
colors dance off our bodies leaving our imprints
we stand, as art of our passion has been left
taking steps slowly hands holding hands
under my skin lies you
through my eyes, you are my vision
waking I feel your arms wrapping around me
your smile brightening the dim lit room
remembering youre physically not here
pulse slowing, body shivering cold
mirror tells lies, your figure fades
i feel you in me, i need you with me
i need you like a coarse tipped brush craves its thick cool paints
without you the canvas stands blank
never lost
you always guide my way
crying i am alone
your grip tightens
see the sun you cry
I look to witness the sun is hiding
you are the rays that gently
beat my chest
my face is warmed by your hands
invisible touch
feel me feel me crying
tears are not the answer
writing words that never seem to form
singing at the top of my lungs
on my knees i cannot say
any louder
hear me always
you are with me
you are with me
im never letting go.
tiny granules twisting beneath our feet
grays and blues rushing by
our sky is the Heaven we see in each other
our life is one
laying down to feel the warmth
salty pebbles dance around our bodies
world spinning, time spent the way it should
our bodies against one another
safety, love, comfort, truths
we are one.
coarse tipped brush
thick cool paints
smeared across my naked body
pushed onto the easel
our soft lips touch
forming magical moments in my mind
fingertips tracing over my ribcage
goosebumps rising...chills..you
stare into my soul
right through me you see the pain
beneath where the beauty is hiding
hand gripping my wrist, other holding my face
"I love you" escapes your breath
inhaling you I feel life become Awake
face finding my neck, eyes exploring every crevice
tip of tongue running up and down me
leaving gentle kisses behind
your hand leaves my face but my eyes follow
watching as you caress me, taking each breast
one at a time
into your hand, circling with your tongue slowly
gently kissing each nipple
staring briefly into my eyes
"come here" pulling me up toward you
reuniting our lips as though we had never felt each others embrace
twisting upon the canvas we are a tangled mess of beauty
colors dance off our bodies leaving our imprints
we stand, as art of our passion has been left
taking steps slowly hands holding hands
under my skin lies you
through my eyes, you are my vision
waking I feel your arms wrapping around me
your smile brightening the dim lit room
remembering youre physically not here
pulse slowing, body shivering cold
mirror tells lies, your figure fades
i feel you in me, i need you with me
i need you like a coarse tipped brush craves its thick cool paints
without you the canvas stands blank
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
..
Not all days are those pleasant ones, you know, where you just wake up ready to go and securely happy. Just happy.
Some days take time, the thought process. Sometimes it takes standing and saying to yourself, you are worth it; and then furthermore convincing yourself.
1. I have two blessed gifts from Father Surrounding, to care for, to assist in guidance, to love and nurture, to be here for, to love unconditionally, to never let down. (This is the reason I can Never Die. No-one else is good enough to raise my children! ;]] )
2. I am young still...I have a lot to learn, a lot to live (maybe).
3. I still have 5lbs to lose (fat) and 10lbs to gain (muscle). That's worth living for, right? It definitely make me smile in the end? ;)
4. Every obstacle and disappointment, is not something to be let down about, it's rather something to push you harder, a challenge; THAT I WILL CONQUER.
5. Someone has to make breakfast.
So.... Being Positive is the thing to do. Because, If I am not positive for myself, I cannot expect better results.
Then again, If I don't initiate and stick to the change I choose, I am wasting away.
I am tired of living for what is right... I want to live for what is not right for everyone else, even those I love the most, even more than myself.... I want to live for my happiness.
....one day, maybe I will.
Some days take time, the thought process. Sometimes it takes standing and saying to yourself, you are worth it; and then furthermore convincing yourself.
1. I have two blessed gifts from Father Surrounding, to care for, to assist in guidance, to love and nurture, to be here for, to love unconditionally, to never let down. (This is the reason I can Never Die. No-one else is good enough to raise my children! ;]] )
2. I am young still...I have a lot to learn, a lot to live (maybe).
3. I still have 5lbs to lose (fat) and 10lbs to gain (muscle). That's worth living for, right? It definitely make me smile in the end? ;)
4. Every obstacle and disappointment, is not something to be let down about, it's rather something to push you harder, a challenge; THAT I WILL CONQUER.
5. Someone has to make breakfast.
So.... Being Positive is the thing to do. Because, If I am not positive for myself, I cannot expect better results.
Then again, If I don't initiate and stick to the change I choose, I am wasting away.
I am tired of living for what is right... I want to live for what is not right for everyone else, even those I love the most, even more than myself.... I want to live for my happiness.
....one day, maybe I will.
.4
churning inside, tangled little knot
pulling tighter, cant be undone
hearts break everyday
how is this any different
pain screaming in one even flow
how is this any different
i feel it here and there
subconsciously
awakening from the most beautiful dreams
alone, without you
how is this any different
screaming and crying is no resolution
hiding in the blankets writing
twisted little thoughts
messages stored and never sent
ideas playing theatrical roles
never leaving the depth of my mind
how is this any different
i love you
listen please
i just cant seem to gather these words
falling inside the pit of gravity
if i sing it to the heavens and it falls to the hells
please hear me somehow
how is this any different
than the broken heart anyone else feels.
just come close, so I may whisper
I love you, this one last time
and trust that for all eternity, I will.
pulling tighter, cant be undone
hearts break everyday
how is this any different
pain screaming in one even flow
how is this any different
i feel it here and there
subconsciously
awakening from the most beautiful dreams
alone, without you
how is this any different
screaming and crying is no resolution
hiding in the blankets writing
twisted little thoughts
messages stored and never sent
ideas playing theatrical roles
never leaving the depth of my mind
how is this any different
i love you
listen please
i just cant seem to gather these words
falling inside the pit of gravity
if i sing it to the heavens and it falls to the hells
please hear me somehow
how is this any different
than the broken heart anyone else feels.
just come close, so I may whisper
I love you, this one last time
and trust that for all eternity, I will.
Monday, January 10, 2011
.3
You are my Earth round, ground crumbling beneath my feet
Rain from Heaven forming mud, squishing between my toes
You give me strength, helping Angels hear my prayers
Our songs reach the Skies, Oceans rumbling in rejoice
Your tight grasp upon me, nurturing all the love I need
Beautiful eyes stare deeply into my mind, granting me the peace I wish for
Intoxicating the touch I long for; you have given up all selfishness
These moments will last, and forever is never ending
The days will become nights, and you are never ending
Our interlocking fingers give purpose, and not even Death will do us Part.
Rain from Heaven forming mud, squishing between my toes
You give me strength, helping Angels hear my prayers
Our songs reach the Skies, Oceans rumbling in rejoice
Your tight grasp upon me, nurturing all the love I need
Beautiful eyes stare deeply into my mind, granting me the peace I wish for
Intoxicating the touch I long for; you have given up all selfishness
These moments will last, and forever is never ending
The days will become nights, and you are never ending
Our interlocking fingers give purpose, and not even Death will do us Part.
.2
How Do You Know
The Earth is Round
The ground crumbles beneath your feet
The rain makes mud
How do you know
The Angels hear your prayers
The Songs reach the Skies
The Oceans water rumbles
How do you Know
The tight grasp upon you
The deep stare into your soul
The touch you long for
How do you know
The love you crave
The nights you wish for
The selfishness you give up
How do you know
The moments will last
The days will become nights
The interlocking fingers give purpose
How do you know
That forever is never ending
That You are never ending
That death will not do us part
How do you know
My love isnt so pure
My blood isnt so kind
My voice isnt so shakey
How do you know
The seed will sprout.
Are you willing to give it water, sun, shade?
If we share this, I need nothing else
How do I know?
You.
The Earth is Round
The ground crumbles beneath your feet
The rain makes mud
How do you know
The Angels hear your prayers
The Songs reach the Skies
The Oceans water rumbles
How do you Know
The tight grasp upon you
The deep stare into your soul
The touch you long for
How do you know
The love you crave
The nights you wish for
The selfishness you give up
How do you know
The moments will last
The days will become nights
The interlocking fingers give purpose
How do you know
That forever is never ending
That You are never ending
That death will not do us part
How do you know
My love isnt so pure
My blood isnt so kind
My voice isnt so shakey
How do you know
The seed will sprout.
Are you willing to give it water, sun, shade?
If we share this, I need nothing else
How do I know?
You.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
.1
dancing ever slow
i feel your heart
in my arms
i wont let go
i feel you becoming me
everytime i look away
my mind draws back memories
i choose to stay
in this playground
where we lay
clouds forming animals
jets soaring by
reality hits earth
and i look back down
dancing ever slow
i feel your heart
in my arms
i feel your heart
in my arms
i wont let go
i feel you becoming me
everytime i look away
my mind draws back memories
i choose to stay
in this playground
where we lay
clouds forming animals
jets soaring by
reality hits earth
and i look back down
dancing ever slow
i feel your heart
in my arms
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