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somewhere i see you
not with my eyes
but i see you with feelings
intense beyond surprise


they are all memories. silly little things that for whatever
reason, I do not want to let go of. Maybe it's simply because I don't want to be a "quitter"....maybe it's because I cherished every moment we ever spent together; even the ones I tried to blow you off...

you asked for proof and the only proof I have is that I can't do it.

I guess it isn't quitting if you never try.

I think I'd rather be a quitter, than never know.

i took this pic outside my house. sometimes when starring upward i think...how long did it take that tree to grow so high, to branch out so far, and to slowly break away as it molds into something new. i love trees. i love the symbolism I can find in them.. the security they offer... and like life, how easily they can be taken away.

you'd never know.

thoughts of you may metaphorically break my heart, tear me down, & push all the tears I'm holding in to the surface... but I'm still standing, walking, running, HAVING FAITH. I'm strong. I'm blessed.

And no matter how I cry, I am blessed.

No matter how I hurt, I AM GRATEFUL.

No matter how little sleep, I still wake each day.

I have something to live for, even when NOONE ELSE CAN SEE IT, I CAN.

and I love .. I love so much...
that's all I have to say.

..... idk.

can you whisper me this moment
gentle secret in my ear
tell me all the things you hold so close
the things you consider dear
squeeze me oh so tightly before you turn away
look me deadset in my eyes
tell me so honestly that you do not wish to stay
if i crumble right there in your grasp
perhaps that's fine with me
your touch will have been my last
a final epiphany



...


your eyes are my time tunnel
taking me where i wish to go
deep inside your mind
swallowed by your soul
...

it happens.

they fall against my shattered face
like rain against the glass
rushing on the windshield
like a starving religious mass
awaiting here i am for you
lightning from the skies
wipers can not wipe away
the sadness in my eyes
churning in my body
like a whirlwind of soap
trying to cleanse every living piece
of barely shimmering hope
drowning in your smiles
memories of when we walked away
fire melting what was left of me
all I needed was us to stay